Daisy
- Name origin
- The song HAL 9000 sings when it's being shut down in 2001: A Space Odyssey
- Aliases
- Currently none; formerly May (retired)
- Pronouns
- he/they
- Type
- EP
- Role
- Trauma holder (grooming)
- Response type
- Positive-fawn response
- Reexperiencing types
- Nightmares, visual flashbacks, somatic flashbacks, age regression
- Communication styles
- Compulsions, distortions
- Coping mechanisms
- Excessively harsh calorie restriction—sometimes to the point of multi-day fasts—and maladaptive daydreaming (specifically, romanticizing being revictimized)
- Traits presented when cofronting
- Agreeability, friendliness, masochism, detachment, mental fog, feeling of kinship to rabbits
Daisy is the one who remembers what it was like when our abuser and his friends all took turns fondling our naked body while we just stood there trying our best to be patient and brave for them.
He also remembers how it felt when one of them, unsure whether the main abuser or a friend, was in the shower with the bathroom door open, encouraging us to peek in at them, and we were in their bed waiting for them, and looked down at our bare thighs, and felt in one of them excitement to receive affection again, and in the other, terror, knowing the violation that would come with it.
Daisy believes his only possible worth is as a sex object. He believes nothing matters, nothing means anything, everything is fake, everything is a lie, everything is a wonderful fantasy, and the safest and happiest possible place in the world is in the loving arms of an abuser who will violate and exploit him again and remind him how wanted and craved he is.
Like Lucy and Alice, Daisy was born when Singer could no longer carry everything alone. Until then, he was a part of Singer.
Daisy copes with shame by looking to others for approval. He also suffers from fear, like the other two EPs, but does not cope with it. He simply lets it consume him.
Relations
Daisy acts friendly toward me but actually doesn't trust me.
Lucy and Daisy are a couple. He may be a little bit obsessed with her.
I think Daisy does not recognize Alice as separate from himself. They were likely a binary subsystem within Singer.
I don't think Daisy considers himself the same as Singer anymore, but I'm not sure he's very aware of her as separate either. They may not have met.
I'm unsure whether Daisy is aware of Sophie as a headmate. As a body, he rejects it as his own. It's much too large for him. He relates to it moreso as belonging to Lucy, and in that regard, he finds it attractive—but since he also has to live in it, he still wants us to make it smaller.
Daisy idolizes Lorna for the love and kindness she showed to us. It is also perhaps because of her that he identifies strongly with rabbits.
Daisy dislikes Bernard, and yet misses him, fawns over him, and wants to be loved by him.